I just remember I sent a link to my nsfw stanley x narrator stuff to Davey Wreden and now I’ll feel like shit for my entire life.
"You know English better than we" they told… "Try yourself in fanfictions translation" they told… I have an extra-“important” announcement.
I HATE! FANFICTION! TRANSLATION!!
I only decided transtale some fanfiction. It’s hard! In my head only “WTF IS THIS WTF IS THAT” because language! It’s only 2nd chapter but I already sleep in an embrace with my dictionary! But I have to keep calm, I have to keep calm… Russian portal-o-holics has “Blue Sky” and feel fantastic about it! Russian parableists wanna be cool too!! Every fandom needs super-big and great famous fanfiction and Russian part of tsp-fandom would like to see such thing and at this moment I am the only who can bring this
work of art fic in Russian fandom so I need translate it and tell everyone about it! So I do it for the fandom! I do it for my comrades! I…
And I told my mother that I will do the impossible thing and she asked “You will do the impossible thing? You will finally find a boyfriend?” Ha-ha, very “funny”! You will pay for your words, woman!
Thanslate foreign fanfics it’s very hard and I get tired, but I really want Russian fandom see this so I will ask about help with this. My English teacher wants to help me
even though we had a problem because I didn’t want to write the word “dear” when it was necessary because I have a reason and she asked and I didn’t wanted and she asked and I didn’t wanted and…So, since I am almost normal again I am always do something, translation as example, it’s actually bloody hard but still better that those RP because in RP constantly such things happens that I am just sit at the computer and constantly shout and comment on everything aloud, sometimes I am happy and sometimes I am angry as geek-girl with ruined OTP and so on as if I was watching the tv-show and mother angry because this!
She thinks that I am a little too emotional but I think that
Well, Russian fandom, great hero is coming for show u something great!
And when I will translate allthen WON’T THEY BE IMPRESSED: I’M NOT A MORON!~ I will learn English better just for u comrades see this and we all could talk about it for 9 9 9 9 9
I have a strong strange paranoidal feeling like someone standing behind me and stalking… It gets on my nerves! It’s really really scary! To write this note I hid under my desk. Only here I have feeling like I am safe.
What is this? I feel like someone watching… Permanently… And this thing is dangerous. And like when I am outside my “den” under desk then this creepy thing closer and closer if I am not leaning against the wall… Okay! No more free space between my back and physical object! I know that no one can stay behind me but I feel like this. I never ever felt like someone stay behind and look at me all the time! Damn it. I can’t do anything without it… I’m so scared. I feel it so strongly… I have a fever? I almost can feel panic. Maybe my conscience hints me that stalking it’s bad?
I’m so nervous. I will sleep right here, under desk, with my mobile device… Yup. In this year like snake crawled into my soul. Every time when I am again feel like “normal”, “strong” and “as cool as before” this “snake” wakes up, bites me and who-knows-how-many days I get rid of the “poison” which I got. Now I got strange paranoidal feeling… For hours of days? I am so scared. Yes, I can feel it. Someone can see my actions, and what I am typing and erase and typing again… DAAAAAAMN I AM SO SCARED.
But I am too boring and annoying for watching. Why I feel so paranoidal? Maybe I am just stressed and tired?.. Or I am just stupid. I don’t think I am going crazy. Really, I am not crazy. I am just tired…
Well, from the other side, hiding in “den” it’s a little funny.
Teacher: K PPL U HAVE JUST FINISHED WROTE THOSE SUPER EASY TEST AND I’VE JUST TOLD YA WHICH ANSWERS WAS CORRECT SO IF U GOT 0 MISTAKES THEN “A” IF 1 THEN “B” IF 2 THEN “C” LOL! [insert idiotic classmate’s name], U GOT “A”!
Me: But why? He made mistake in the second test question!
Teacher: AHA GOTCHA U LOOKED AT HIS TEST I GUESSED BUT NOW I HAVE A PROOF U COPIED HIS WORK DONT U U GOT “F” HAHAHALOL!
IIIII HAAAAATEEEEEEE MYYYYY SCHOOOOOL!!!!
Also, orange Tumblr-buttons are extra-annoying!
Red was much more better!
((Instood of picking up my rps I draw my silly drawings… As usual, yup…))
I am still draw in this rp.
But my hands do not move when I try draw something from Portal or Touhou or Hetalia or else… Daaamn iiiit, it’s a probleeem, I want draw only things which related to this rp, but I even can’t post all of them because [insert some otp about which I personally should shut up], no doctor for me…~
And one more thing I want to say!
I recently get
I GET THE HIGHTEST GRADE IN MATH TEST IN OUR SCHOOL!!
I DID IIIIT! I DID IT!! I AM GENIUS! I AM MAN!! I AM THE BEST!!
I never get many good grades on math but I DID IT!!
I am actually very good at studying now! Even my english teacher praise me! (yes, it’s weird… But I am best english-speaker in my class. Yes, my english is bad but IMMA THE BEEEEST!) My teacher even said that she ready to help me with translation english fanfics in russian! Hooooooray! I will bring cool fanfics in russian sites!
AND MY MATH’S GRAAAAADE!!!
Now, when things again will be like:
then I will say that I HAVE HIGH GRADE IN MATH TEST!!!! AND I WILL SHUT EVERYONE UP WITH THIS! And I actually now super good at studying! I can’t remember another time when I was so successfull!
I AM COOOOOOOOOOOOOOL AT STUDYING!!
I can not stop my joy! I run around the apartment!
I am turned into happy quiet carrying derp wind-headed girl again! I am so happy! No obsessions! No stress! No anything! I AM FREEEE!!! FINALLY!!! I AM FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
Recently, also, my teacher wanted talk with my mother about my problems with school but it was not mother’s fault, it was mine fault so I tried convince teacher let me take responsibility for my wrong actions by myself but she resisted and my mother knew about what I did but she thinks that I can fix everything and she didn’t want talk with teacher so I tried protect mother from all those boring and I talked and talked and talked and talked and and and and and and…
And in the evening mother told me that my teacher telephoned her and said thing like “UR DAUGHTER TRIED CONVICE ME ALL DAY IS SHE EVEN KNOW WHAT “GIVE UP” MEANS SHE IS SO STUBBORN I COULDN’T TOLERATE IT SHE HARASSED ME SO HARD SO EVENTUALLY I SAID TO HER “GO AWAY!!!” OMG DAMN IT I OKAY I WON’T WORRY YOU BUT I HOPE UR DAUGHTER WON’T DO THIS AGAIN”
Yes, that’s me! I never give up! I won! I WON! I prevented her bother my mother for my actions because I have 120% of portalofan’s tenacity! And mother said that she is super-proud of my stubbornness and she laughted so hard because teacher was so shocked!
Mother then told me like “If fail you and only you then you are not the worst and stupidiest person in the world it's just your feature and you are still have rights and feelings, everyone is unic and unhappily sometimes you are unic when you didn’t wanted be unic but you can’t succeed everywhere. But you beloved by people who hates everyone and hated by people who loves everyone and you give up easy when you shouldn’t and try when everyone else give up because no person in the world like you and I proud you so much because you are unic one. World needs people who always out of rules because not only good rules and when rules is careless and undifferense to others you are also out.
Trust me, I know you for years.”
She also said that I am selfish but always was people who somehow got only care and fun from me and still remember me like that.
Maybe I should listen what my mother says.
No inner conflicts without her advices anymore.
And now everyone admire my good grades in school and my stubborness!
I outargue teacher who don’t know the compromises! It’s maybe sounds weird but it cool for me!
And now mother happy and won’t take my tablet away from me! I am with my priceless tablet 3 or 4 days already~ Finally~
…Yes, I draw something. Anyone really thought that I stopped draw things? I will stop draw only when Half-Life 3 will appear. But IIII~ wooont~ publish iiit~